Roommates

So I decided to take a $150 out of my savings and go shopping today..good decision!! I finally have cute shirts to wear, now I just need plans to go out..lol.

Anyways this blog has been long due, I live with two other girls that I met my freshmen year thru the sorority I joined. We lived together last year in the sorority house and everything was great and that was with about 7 other girls..so I figured why not do a second year just the three of us since we were so close. BAD IDEA! well since I'm no longer involved with the sorority, and they hold positions on the executive board, we no longer had anything in common, and I mean NOTHING. I'm more social and have a night life where they rather sit at home and watch youtube videos of god knows what and order pizza every other day. Their whole lives revolve around the sorority and since I'm no longer in they can't share any info with me nor do I really care to know. I'm only interested in the gossip ( I'm a girl!) now thats part one of the problem, part two is how DIRTY our house is. I refuse to clean the kitchen considering I wash my dishes constantly, the most they'll sit in the sink is two days tops while one of the girls' stuff will sit there for at least a month..and the sink will start to stink soooo bad. Garbage is rarely taken out. If I see myself taking it out more than twice in a week then I will just stop, and it will sit there and stink for a while until one of them finally decides to grab it. my biggest pet peeve though is when one of them cooks and leave her pot on the stove with whatever leftover that she didn't eat, at the moment theres a pot with pasta in there and its been sitting on the stove since MONDAY, it is now SUNDAY! fucking dirty, at least throw the pasta away and let it sit in the sink with your other dishes. ugh well I have about 5 more months in this filth and awkward living situation, since we barely talk at all! But next year I'm getting my very own place thank the lord, I should have done that this year but oh well! lesson learned.

xox

update

So I slacked yesterday and didn't blog but that mostly due to the fact that I was a walking zombie all day. Due to my adderall I received 0 hours of sleep, instead I stayed up watching CNN and MSNB's coverage of the chase with the boston shooters..insane shit. I have so much more respect for the cops, FBI, bomb squad and everyone else, tt was crazy that just few hours after their pictures from 7-11 appeared that they got almost their whole life stories figured out! anyways I went to work at 4 and by 10:30 I was home and already asleep! FINALLY. I love the feeling I get when I'm on adderall but I hate the coming down effect. I'll keep this short and sweet and post something more bitchy tomorrow.

xox

Being a girl sucks

So I finally got off my couch and ventured 15 steps away from my house to the local coffee shop, and I have yet to still do my homework, instead adderal is making me very very chatty and I just talked my friend who I haven't seen in a while's ear off! yikes... maybe I'll attempt homework later or not..anyways.

The title of my blog is being a girl sucks because it truly does especially when you try to live on a budget like I kinda am. Today I added my best friend from freshmen year on Instagram and that made me feel like shit about myself. she is gorgeous but that wasn't it, allll her pictures were of her in the CUTEST outfits ever with her cute boyfriend in all these bars and parties.. living the life! while I'm working my ass off saving money to pay for all my debt. I can't even remember last time I went to the mall, let along to buy clothes, last thing I bought myself was 2 months ago and it was Vera Bradley steering wheel and it was $24 ugh. so my plan is to ask my dad to pay my phone bill this month ($150) so I can buy myself some clothes finally. Hopefully he agrees, because I'm badly in need of something new to wear. Being a girl is exhausting, especially if you try to look cute all the time, I recently started getting my nails done and that is fucking money since I have to go every 2 to 3 weeks to get a fill-in, plus my eyes brows have to be done every other week but I don't want to spend $12 that often so I just get them done once a month, right now they look so disgusting. My hair needs a trim so bad it's disgusting but haircuts are expensive..and we won't even mention the fact that it needed to be dyed about 5 months ago and I just box dye it...the sacrifices I have to make to save money and pay my debt off ugh. But looking at her pictures really just made me feel sad about my life and at the same time more responsible because she has no bills, her parents pay for everything and her job is at a tanning salon that her parents own...so I guess in the responsibility category I win. Today is just one of those days where I don't feel pretty at all and poor and I have nothing to wear! In another note I just realized why I've been breaking out lately..I stopped taking my birth control and my hormones are now crazy and make me breakout! so I guess this sunday I'll start taking it again. blahhh I'll post something more positive-ish later

xox

Thursday

So today was supposed to be my homework day, I bought an addy took it before my shower, got out of the shower and it looks like hell outside ( I'm glad my car is getting  wash tho)..so looks like I'm staying in today and maybe attempt homework after I watch The Real World, I don't want to waste taking my motivation pill but I'm not risking the walk outside in this weather. good thing is I'm glad I didn't pick up a shift at work because they'll most likely lose power and it will be dead anyways like the past two days. I definitely need another summer job to keep busy,stay out of drinking/trouble and save money!! this is a short blog today but i'll make another one later bitching about something good!

xox

let's talk me, let's talk about I!

now that song is stuck in my head..

well I am a 20 year old almost 21 year old college student. I attend a school out of state which is both the best and worst idea ever (more on that later). I work as a server at a popular steakhouse where I make good money but I'm in so much debt that none of it really goes to me after I pay bills, rent and debt off i'm left with enough for food and booze. I was in a sorority but thank the lordy I'm out, that was just me paying a lot of money for a lot of drama that I didn't need. I'm single and have been for quite a while now, I'm okay with it for the most part but wouldn't mind finally meeting a man who wants a relationship for a change! I'm sick of the men I'm not interested in wanting me/something serious and the ones I want are never ready for a relationship. I just like to think that I'm too beautiful that it scares them..whatever floats my boat right? I mean the last guy I was interested in was 8 years older than I am and has a kid, that just screams daddy issues ( my dad and I have an okay relationship, and talk everyday though) but his personality was awesome and sometimes that's what really matters and he had a kickass beard! also another plus in my book. But like every other guy I was interested in he was talking to other girls and is actually now in a relationship and has been since we stopped talking in January ( talk about not ready for something serious huh?) the second guy I was recently only sorta  kinda interested in ( more like I only talked to him because I was bored, and he was cute) turned out to be a cheap 24 year old who still lives at home and doesn't have unlimited texting ( how can we communicate?!?!) and is only friends with his dad type of guy. I like a family man but I don't like a mommy's boy or a daddy's bff, I talk to my parents everyday but they don't need to know everything and I don't need to see them everyday! I mean maybe I am a little too picky when it comes to men BUT   who cares!
perfect man:
- is older.
- spoils me ( affection & materialistic sometimes).
- taller than me.
- not skinny but not fat and not too muscly.
- has a good job and goes to school or has graduated.
- good looking ( to me, I have a weird taste).
- smart, nothing worse than a stupid boy.
- STRONG personality to match mine.
- likes my friends.
- I like his friends.
- drinks but not an alcoholic.
- preferably doesn't smoke.
- I know there's more but I just can't think of any right now (it's almost 3am!)

xox

why blog?

so it's a little past 1:30 am and I should be studying for the class I'm about to fail ( or at least get a D) but instead I made this blog. I will literally do ANYTHING to avoid studying this semester which sucks. I wish I was one of those girls that'd pull an all nighter just to study for a class, nope once it's 10pm I turn to netflix and watch whatever show I happen to be obsessed at the moment ( now it's shameless)  and once I wake up in the morning I'll come up with a million more excuses as to why I should just skip class AGAIN and my inner evil self always win, I just can't say no to myself..,,,like ever. back to school it's finals season and even though I don't really have a final to take just an exam about  management so I can get certified, my plan is to not pick up a shift thursday but instead take an adderal  and just study all freaking afternoon after class, sounds like a good plan to me! I never thought I'd be the blogging type but one of my bestfriends made one and it's so good so I decided why not someone out there will read this and semi-relate to my life ( I'll tell ya more about it tomorrow) 

xoxo gossip girl 
jk I wish