So I finally got off my couch and ventured 15 steps away from my house to the local coffee shop, and I have yet to still do my homework, instead adderal is making me very very chatty and I just talked my friend who I haven't seen in a while's ear off! yikes... maybe I'll attempt homework later or not..anyways.
The title of my blog is being a girl sucks because it truly does especially when you try to live on a budget like I kinda am. Today I added my best friend from freshmen year on Instagram and that made me feel like shit about myself. she is gorgeous but that wasn't it, allll her pictures were of her in the CUTEST outfits ever with her cute boyfriend in all these bars and parties.. living the life! while I'm working my ass off saving money to pay for all my debt. I can't even remember last time I went to the mall, let along to buy clothes, last thing I bought myself was 2 months ago and it was Vera Bradley steering wheel and it was $24 ugh. so my plan is to ask my dad to pay my phone bill this month ($150) so I can buy myself some clothes finally. Hopefully he agrees, because I'm badly in need of something new to wear. Being a girl is exhausting, especially if you try to look cute all the time, I recently started getting my nails done and that is fucking money since I have to go every 2 to 3 weeks to get a fill-in, plus my eyes brows have to be done every other week but I don't want to spend $12 that often so I just get them done once a month, right now they look so disgusting. My hair needs a trim so bad it's disgusting but haircuts are expensive..and we won't even mention the fact that it needed to be dyed about 5 months ago and I just box dye it...the sacrifices I have to make to save money and pay my debt off ugh. But looking at her pictures really just made me feel sad about my life and at the same time more responsible because she has no bills, her parents pay for everything and her job is at a tanning salon that her parents own...so I guess in the responsibility category I win. Today is just one of those days where I don't feel pretty at all and poor and I have nothing to wear! In another note I just realized why I've been breaking out lately..I stopped taking my birth control and my hormones are now crazy and make me breakout! so I guess this sunday I'll start taking it again. blahhh I'll post something more positive-ish later
xox
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